Dont be surprised

It was bound to happen.
For days the ache lie at the door;
an intractable silhouette that refused
                                   to slip away.
I step outside, stand beside the autumn
leaves. I dream a dream of kissing you
amid the moist air. Is it only a dream?
If not,                               then what?
Because it is here in the traces of
footfall that I imagine you.
Your hands gather mine, place them
to chest,      where everything burns,
           where each second is counted
where the tongue thickens along the path.
In this September of my life, the voice
knows not of language  a circle of
                                               sound
        like an echo, subtle in the mouth.
With cool hands, I button my coat
and I walk the distance of your smile.
I consider the words of
Neruda         and by the same shore,
I would end my journey, place roots
within his, lie quiet, and await for you
                                  to discover me.
If your heels drag in season, and you
cannot reach me     if your heels drag
in season, and you could never reach
me, the sea breeze would shatter my
form, the dream would fade away.

Coco Chanel

“Women think of all colors except the absence of color. I have said that black has it all. White too. Their beauty is absolute. It is the perfect harmony.” ―Coco Chanel ♥

B&W

My B&W Slideshow

Oh Joy!

During hours of madness

Your words brush flesh-like behind my nape,
where I am pressed by a bitter wind
              on my way to make amends.
I gather for hours        these moments, where
I live inside of you, where I curl in the kindness
and cool of your extended hands.
I long to inspire them, to run my own against
them           guide each [breath] across chest
like a lucid dream or fervor.
And I cannot sense whose heat is whose
                            when I read your lines.
But I am compelled to keep you at hand,
caught in my hair like a prayer, a slip of
the thigh as I move broad, descend deeper,
                                           swallowing you.
But it is only a dream, only a dream.
And with reverie slipped soft beneath my skirt,
I step into the basilica, and everything
becomes still as if the members felt my thoughts,
sensed the confession still warm on my tongue.

Becoming the Breeze That Chases the Boy

Blush is the skin after his voice
it weighs as much as the tongue flustered.
Where clarity does not come without ache,
and like a egrets cautious step in peril,
                          the body slows to naught.

The senses concede each muscle, fluid,
an oceans barrage. The vascular parapet,
the dark valves of altars, a reminder that one
must prepare on the wire for collapse.

One must thicken arteries to cease the flow,
so the language that pushes through his throat
does not slip into the open spaces, pierce
                        the defenses with a single flutter
just as the heart begins to calm, when Autumn
has left a deeper auburn on the leaves,
just when you have glanced away for a moment.

As If By Sea

O love, speak to me.
Should we end as quickly as we
                                      began?

I slip past your lips tonight, find myself
inside flesh, where
each second, I witness
                             you for the first time.

And I know now that it will not be you
who catches my fall: there is nothing
con       necting us anymore, but space.

For a moment, I rest in the deep of
your throat― beautiful and low,
I pull
       each breath with a stern finger,

voice impelling from your chest
nothing pushing nothing       [nothing].

And there is no frame to this leg room,
no fervor free of reluctance      I wish
you were really here.

A plea is not enough      you are built like
stone, these two hands cannot get past
the water that rises―splitting words

to a scat    ter          soon it will be
against the nape, its salt thickening my
own tongue
                  to a silence.


Not about anything in general. :)

For He Who Enters

O gentle one,
breathe in - I am warm on the wire.
My body rushes to the stroke, rigor
fills my palm as a lily might pervade
the garden.

I require more -
I need to feel
the madness in you,
tender lip, delicate thigh, and, and
the moments as they ex
-plore eagerness -
for you I am awake.

And O my the breeze lifts my dress;
its mellow depths, push cotton to cheek.
And in a state of array, I curve to fit
the form.

You follow    how stirring,
like a schoolboy, the gestures, the way
I move in you presence,
     my hair in your hands       it is
too much.

And there is something outside your door
                                  it is art, Italy, Neruda!
           No. It is only the sound
of the rain or a dream perhaps, but as your
mouth expands slow and silent

I peel from your skin in
blue. There is no path
more sustained than
           the one
              that leads to you.

Rapt in salutations we perform from one
window to the other, you grow fevered,
misplaced, lonely,
                                         in love.

O beloved, these words, like stones pressed
against your cheek, breathe in 
                  for I am [warm] on the wire.

An Autumn Walk

There are too many hours before dusk,
where one can become mislaid along
the hidden curves of the throat:
a burst
of laughter,
of white space,
of delicate, corporeal vocals;
a counting of the harvest in cultural

rearing. The voice is a lover:
a span of the sensual sun, a nervousness
that lies low in the season, waiting or begging
for release. And the flutter of chest becomes
wet, a way to taste the tongue, or perhaps
a lead that one must pursue solely.

I say this before the rain in hopes of
encore or breadth -
I dont know why I like it. I just do.

O, if I were an atlas
a diagram that reveals warm breath on flesh,
I would gather the hum that cascades nicely
from the sweetened lip, sweep it to elite waters,
and drown in what could never be mine.

Florida

San Francisco

Like a hand on an unstrung harp

O, I envy your voice when it maddens,
the way it moves in & out of love.
I feel the sound of soft bone splinter
in an instant―fragments, ardor, the slight
of heat beneath skin it is radiant.

The rush an explosion of sorts like lilies
a thousand shades of white as September
rises to rain beyond sense of place,
beyond our eyes.

I sense the tightness in my throat as you
place your words onto the quiet of mine.
I quiver before my own heart: a girl drawn
restless in half moon, favored in your light.

I see rows of brilliant bloom, a garden,
a gate succulent, inviting. And as I give
in to downpour, my walls collapse, hands
slipping into the warmth of yours.

Falling From Western Skies

In the mirror, I see his face
It has been so long since I have
heard the soft of        his voice
along the wire―
its sweet laughter
         forming my lips
                     to a curve.

        It has been hours since I have sensed
the fruit on his breath through
dialogue and delight
a stirring like no other.

And I will wait
a small existence against the horizon, wait as my
fingers turn to numb, until the slightest movement
brushes my flesh against his.

I sit on the white sands of a late September morn,
watch the tide feed back into the sea.

Far off, the precipice stretches to sky:
it stands from one end to the other of
my undying admiration.

I gather my pen, begin a letter:

Dearest one,

Drown by tangled sentiment, reflective
in thought―my hands tremble
as I write.

This place, a landscape of vigor - it demands
the passion caught carelessly in my hair,
but I do not
give in.

Everything that forms my breath,
remains contained in your hands, held
softly as first snow. It presses me
to call out your name,
     but you
         are not here.

And the tide is rising―
fresh water that fingers my flesh as you might.
Its want, deep-seated, eyes empty, like the way
I am on days without your warmth.

You pulsate inside me, leave me misplaced
in a season gone astray.

        I have searched for your face
in a crowded room, felt excitement from infinite
mountain sides, where all the every things
are counted like blue cars or drops of rain.

Here, as the last words fall away,
I surrender myself.

        Here, where the thread that ties one
voice to another will carry us quietly, to a place
where we can unfold these
cold and bare
hands.

Cocoa Beach

With clear and positive thinking, kindness, and perseverance you can fine tune your character, and bring to a focus greater opportunity, and a higher quality of people. Affluence begins within one's own mind.

Daytona Beach

Northen Wind

Happiness

Happy things:

falling in love, laughing so hard your face hurts, a hot shower, no lines at the market, a special glance, taking a drive on a quiet road, hearing your favorite song on the radio, lying in bed listening to the rain outside, hot towels fresh out of the dryer, chocolate milkshake, a bubble bath, giggling, the sounds of a church bell in the distance, the sound of a train whistle in the distance, a fresh breeze coming into the window, the smell of a fresh cut lawn, planting flowers and helping them grow, helping others, a genuine smile as you pass a stranger, getting a "quick note" from a friend or loved one, just saying "hello", they miss you, or that you have moved them in some way.

a good conversation, the sea, laughing at yourself, looking into their eyes and knowing they love you, running through sprinklers, laughing for absolutely no reason at all, having someone tell you that you're beautiful, family, religion, laughing at an inside joke with friends, others supporting what you do, accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you, giving your time to others for no more than "just because", volunteering, the sound of an instrument playing softly, sailing, someone doing something sweet for you for no other reason, other than they care.

waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep, your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner), making new friends or spending time with old ones, playing with a new puppy, having someone play with your hair, sweet dreams, hot chocolate, having best friends, being able to love others in good and bad times, hearing that a close friend loves you the way you are, seeing a gesture from a friend that makes your heart smile, a walk in the rain, sharing an umbrella.

road trips, swinging on swings, holding hands with someone you care about, running into an old friend, watching the sunrise/set, getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day, knowing that somebody misses you, showing the people around you how much you care, a good book, when someone REALLY gets your joke, making sweet things for others, supporting others in what they do, never judging, giving advice, letting them make mistakes, and being there to celebrate if they succeed, or to lift them up if they fall.

getting a hug from someone you care about deeply, a walk in the woods or along the beach, the rain, a good cup of coffee, a quiet smile, nature, feeling good in your heart, laughing so hard with a friend, someone making something nice for you, being silly, and knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Novembre

Beauty is an experience.

On a different note: Congrats to two beautiful boys on their 2012 graduation. Joey and Jacob have so many reasons to be proud. Love to them both. And congrats to all other grads! :)

Of Significant Things

Your mate should be your best friend--understanding and a good listener. They should never be judgmental of you, call you names, or make you feel any less of a person. And remember, your feelings are yours and it does not mean they are wrong just because others may feel different. ♥