There's a Racing Within My Heart

"Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing,... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen."

Practical magic.

You know, I adore affection (and confection ;)). I love to love, and to be loved, as well. Who doesn't? Well, I know what I want from a relationship. One thing, I want to know that I am loved no matter what. That the person who loves me, loves me with all my flaws. (I am just a normal girl.) I want an insatiable love; a love that thrives on trust, warmth, forgiveness, and an unending desire to make each other happy in every way.

I want to know that if I become 10ft tall, 900lbs, legless, blind, or anything, I will be just as loved as before. I never want to feel unworthy. I never want to feel ugly. I never want to feel unloved by the one I love. i know how it feels to feel unloved, and it hurts so much. And I am not shallow, so I do not want a shallow partner. I just want to be loved for "me". The way my best friend Stefan adores me.

"You ever put your arms out and spin really, really fast? Well, that's what love is like. It makes your heart race. It turns the world upside down. But if you're not careful, if you don't keep your eyes on something still, you can lose your balance. You can't see what's happening to the people around you. You can't see that you're about to fall."